Monday, 15 April 2013

A-Z Challenge- N

N is for Need for Change

I'm going through this phase at the moment where it feels like the walls are closing in on me, that nothing is simple or tidy or in its place. That everything is a mess (not just in the home) I feel I'm not being the best Mother, the best wife. All those stupid things we feel. I don't think I'm rubbish at anything I do, I just don't believe right now I'm giving it my all.

I am in need of change. I need to change how I think about things. I have to change how I deal with situations that arise in the family home. Why add more shouting to the bickering? Why hold a grudge just because Husband didn't cook you a meal? Why upset the atmosphere for something so stupid?

I need to change my diet. My health is not going so great at the moment. I know what's wrong with me, I have digestive 'issues' which cause me grief sometimes for a whole 2 weeks! I need to find a good diet, a healthy one but not too healthy because that actually causes me more problems! I need to cut down on the junk, go back to baking. Exercise! Dammit, how hard is it to do a quick  workout?

I need to have more time for me. I haven't been on a charity scavenger hunt in ages. I have only tonight managed to paint my nails a lovely colour of pink and it's taken me a month! So at this rate it'll be another month before I get to tame these eyebrows of mine! 

I'm the only one who can sort these things. I wish I had more support but do you know what? I can paint a room and put up photos and you never know, I may even risk everything by watching a few 'DIY how to drill' you tube videos! I'm the only who can put the right food in my mouth and get up to work out.

I have an eye test appointment this week to see if I need new glasses and to find out if there's anything going on 'behind the scenes' because they've been a bit weird lately! I'm enduring the dentist on Wednesday which is awful but ultimately a good thing, get a check up, fill a filling and go home pain free *Hurrah!* Lastly, I have finally booked an appointment with a local Osteopath to sort this back of mine out because in all honesty it is really, really hurting and I'm getting fed up of late nights, pain killers and hot water bottles.

Do you need to change anything? Are you putting it off?

CupcakeMumma

12 comments:

  1. Oh Hannah...I want to give you a hug.
    I think you should stop worrying about taking everything on at once & tackle one thing at a time. That's fine or me to say because I'm the same. I desperately need to eat healthier, try & do a bit of exercise - god knows what I can do? But I'm sure even a few minutes on the treadmill would be good.
    Maybe exercise would give you a boost of good endorphins?
    Little baby steps for change xxx

    (Also I tried

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    1. Thanks Donna lots of good advice there :) We'll be on a get healthy mission together then when we can be arsed haha!! xxx

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  2. I am in need of change as well. I started small. I cut caffeine from my diet. I have found it to be very, very helpful so far!

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    1. I'm starting with drinking more water. I habit that is harder than it seems! Hope you stay off the caffeine Megan!

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  3. Like you, I need to go get my eyes checked...it isn't a big deal just haven't taken the time to make an appointment but I have been noticing that things are a bit blurry....Happy A-Z challenge.

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    1. Thanks for stopping by. I hope you have been spurred to make your appointments now!I missed mine- what an idiot!

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  4. Wow, sweetie. It sounds like you're going all out for a full MoT! We all feel the need for change as Spring comes and I think it feels more obvious now as the winter has gone on for so long.

    Don't be too hard on yourself. Take it easy and start one new thing at a time (unlike me) then you're more likely to avoid burnout (unlike me!!)
    Love you squillions and always here xxx

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    1. I am Kat lol! I know what you mean,blooming Spring hiding away :( I'll try to take it a bit easier and take little steps! Hoping you've learnt the hard way lol xxxx

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  5. I can relate to so much of this. I'm the type of person who gets bored fast...of my apartment, of my furniture, of my job...all of that. Sometimes it helps me just to rearrange a room or buy a new wall hanging. :-)

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    1. Ah I can also relate to that too. I don't like big changes but when it comes to my home, my rooms and all the stuff inside i'm awful for wanted new, fresh things every now and again! Thanks :)

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  6. Oh love it sounds like you need to start looking after yourself. So easy to say isn't it? But not so easy to do. I too need and eye test and a trip to the dentist. But I keep on pushing these things to the back of the list...

    It sounds like you are taking steps in the right direction. You have made the appointments! Good luck and I hope that you feel better for it.

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    1. Thanks, I've had a few appointments already so feeling good! I'm sure i'll get there! xx

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